Saturday, March 29, 2008

The search for Mr Right (Now)

Listening to: 'Apologize' by Timbaland ft. OneRepublic [Timbaland Presents Shock Value]

I was initially going to respond to Anon.'s comment on my last post as another comment, but then thought I should probably address it in a separate post. See Anon., this is where you and I differ - you believe "from the bottom of [your] heart, that there is someone for everyone". I don't. I think that this is something we tell our perpetually single friends because we wouldn't dare tell them "yup, you're screwed" (not literally, unfortunately). We keep our hopes up high and delude ourselves into thinking that Prince Charming will ride up to our doorstep someday before we kick the bucket, simply because Walt Disney said he would. Even if you're right and there is someone for each of us, I don't think that all of us are lucky enough to find these soulmates. Still, we're all entitled to our own opinions, and this point is not something that can be proven right/wrong, so I'm willing to agree to disagree.

This concept of a soulmate is also somewhat concerning. Whenever I comment/whinge/wallow in self-pity about my 'situation', I get the impression that people think I'm pining for a soulmate. On the contrary, I'm not thinking that far. And no, I'm not thinking about a quickie either. What I yearn is companionship. A companionship so intimate that the other person feels more or less a part of me. If he turns out to be a complete shit in a couple of months' time, oh well...I'll cross that bridge then. If he turns out to be the most amazing person on the planet, I'll marry him in the blink of an eye...but again, I'll cross that bridge then. But right now, what I want is a companion. Is that too much to ask? Apparently so.

Anon., you said I shouldn't think about the things that get me down. Well that's exactly why I'm trying to keep myself that I don't have time to think about them...devil makes work for idle hands and all that. My problem is that I haven't been able to find anything that serves as an adequate distraction. So yes I am trying to follow your advice...but I think you'll appreciate that it's a lot easier said than done.

I wouldn't say that I've totally given up the search for Mr Right, or Mr Right Now...but I think it's safe to say that I'm not expecting either of them to come knocking at my door anytime soon.

1 comment:

  1. Okay so you really really do know what I am always complaining about, don't you?!
    I couldn't have said any of that better myself =/


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