Panic

Listening to: 'Take It All Away' by Ryan Cabrera [Take It All Away]

It just hit me. What am I doing? Why am I doing whatever it is that I am doing? What's the meaning of my project? Is this really an original contribution to knowledge? What am I supposed to achieve by the end of June? Will I ever get meaningful results? Hang on, will I ever get any results? Do I really deserve to be here? Am I gonna get through my first year? Are they gonna tell me to go home and wash dishes for a living? Why am I going away this weekend when I really need to work? Why am I so up for partying the night away when I really need sleep? Why do I need so much sleep? Why can't I wake up before 9am? Why can't I go to sleep before 2am? What am I doing with my life? Why can't I find the answers to any of these questions?

To succeed is nothing, it's an accident. But to feel no doubts about oneself is something very different: it is character.

Let's hope Marie Lenéru's right.